Forgive me for not being as big as you made me
I will improve if more of You shows up!
I will get fuller, I promise, and strong–and expand to renovate the stars.
Until then, preserve the stupid by Your Wisdom
Put us in you–hide us until others see nothing
but what happens
When you come into a person–that supernova instant
birthing into the specific contours of our shine.
And we will shine as you made us to!
I forgot who I was for minute or a season, I am not sure…
I forgot what you said
I forgot I was meant to be so full, radiant, ecstatically alive
So alive, in fact,
that others simply had no choice but to glow
I forgot, and got dull–don’t mull over it
Never forgive my dullness
Before one so splendid
And yet, I am a fool
A dulled tool in your hand
Which holds the constellations;
Who am I to ask, or demand to shine!
(And yet, below
we wrestle for the blessing)
Please, help me shine
Until others can see their next line
And all is clear for you to read!
Come read us over and over, come read us
Until You fall asleep! And dream us again
As we once were and will be!
Come read us
Until You are once again in the mood
To deal with us!
Thank you God